You people have given me a lot of action the last couple of days! YAY! I am miss popular lately, huh? Or maybe it was ONE certain someone being relentless ;), which I love, by the way. This week has been nuts and I am pretty sure I still have only a tad bit of sanity left.

First, that project was a pain. I probably spent about 60 hours on it in the last two weeks. I just couldn't figure it out for THE longest time. The most amusing thing was that I thought I had the last pieces of the puzzle done about 13 times... it ended up being 29 steps (for those of you out there that don't know, THAT IS A LOT!) ... From Sunday night until last night, I have had an average of four hours of sleep per night. NOT healthy. Then I had a take-home test and it was ridiculous to say the least.

Not only that, I found out that a kid from back home died from a horrible car crash. I have known him since he was five... his little brother is in tenth grade and they lost their father a few years back to cancer something terrible. No tenth grader should go through all of the things this kid has gone through. Anyway, I was on facebook the other night and this mature little kid, Patrick, started talking to me. He calls me my name with an R in front of it. Not like I could gauge it really well, but he talked to me for quite awhile and told me that his car is a "molten piece of scrapmetal". Poor kid. I made sure he knew that I was praying for him, that his brother will never be forgotten, etc. I still can't believe it. I was talking to the boy tonight and said "poor Garrett". And he said "NOT poor Garrett, poor family". I needed to hear that. He's in a better place. Period.

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Then I have had grading and proctoring and more grading... and I am feeling like crap because I have to start running and getting back in shape. I need a LOT of help... serious help. And can I please not be so insecure?! blah.

This weekend would have been the half marathon I wanted to run, but due to some unforeseen, unplanned, and eventful happenings I am not in the shape I wanted to be now. It's a sad thing, really. I have been through the gutter this week, that's for sure. My stomach has been acting up lately and I have been trying to eat healthily but it's hard when I have grading and assignments of my own and really I haven't done research and I can't wait to delve into it after this crap. I have said it before, I will say it again--- it's so DAUNTING. Thursday I took a day off with my favorite girlies. We had sushi (mine without fish!), had a mani/pedi (no fake nails for me, thank you) and got my hair cut A LOT. I like it, but secretly (or not so secretly) wanted to cut it a bit shorter. I had a thing with a friend this week. By this "thing" I will say few things. I hurt her (not purposely, of course), she ignored me, I was relentless and tried to contact her and she never told me she was mad at me as she just stopped corresponding. I have thought about this a lot since it happened on Wednesday. I am super bummed out. I am really hurt that she just got over it but never told me about it. She's over it, while I am still reeling. My biggest fear is disappointment. I hate disappointing people and myself. I hate hurting others, and unfortunately it happens. I get super emotional, shook up, and over analyze ever little thing. And the thing with me is I need resolution. ASAP. Period. Be mad but let me talk. Whenever I get mad at the beau (not often; he's amazing), even if he knows that certain thing bothered me, I need to tell him. That's just the way I am. So, I have been super sensitive when it comes to other "humans" in the last few days. In turn, I got called pretty much uptight and unable to take a joke "like I used to". I am sorry, sometimes I have girl tendencies. SOMETIMES. I am just hurt... stressed... and my mind is going 800 miles a minute. I played racquetball for the first time today. I pretty much gave up after 40 minutes. I just wasn't getting a workout, and I NEEDED to work out to de-stress. So, I left; the boys were upset... I ended up running 2 miles. Thanks, Ash for the advice. I ran the first ten minutes at incline 2 and speed 5, then the next 5 minutes at 2 speed 6, then went for another five minutes. I got a workout, let me tell ya'! So, awesome advice, because when you get tired and then get to go to incline zero it's "like" going downhill! WELL, here's to a good summer in one week. I hope to make my boss happy and make myself happy by doing my body GOOD THINGS. I just have to try to shake off these things that happened this week and FOCUS.

Easier said than done.

didn't work out yesterday or today
got three hours of sleep
running on a lot of coffee, i guess i am a *true* grad student now huh?
i have a final *horrendous* project due on Friday.
Even the retrosynthesis isn't finished, which simply means there is a LONG way to go.... already 26 steps and all, where all must be explained. Still no weekly sent. He might kill me. It's been too long. He will hate me. So stresssssssssssssssssed! Hopefully I can get on a workout schedule after I finish this wretched thing.
So tired...

Hope all is well, peeps. Thanks for reading.

Yesterday was good- worked out- swam for 45 minutes or so... supper I went to the golden corral, though. I still was good because I had a LOT of points left and I hadn't used ANY flex points the whole week. Hopefully, I will see a change on the scale on Monday... will let you know. 15 and counting, people! :)

My "sister" (whom I have known for almost 11 years now) is a student and she is studying to be a teacher. She had to write a book with pictures, of course. She sent me the story yesterday. I have read it twice now. Cried twice. To me, it is the best present I have ever received.

"Once upon a time, not so very far away, there was a kingdom. The kingdom wasn’t anything special; nothing too noteworthy had ever taken place there. It was just another common, ordinary, everyday kingdom.

Now in this kingdom a princess was born; a small girl that, at first glance, could be deemed as ordinary as her surroundings. It was only when a closer look was taken that her true potential was revealed. Her smile emanated colors, her eyes promised the extraordinary, and her actions screamed you wouldn’t be let down.

Time passed, and the princess spent most of it exploring her kingdom and the vast surrounding area. She loved everything about the outdoors. She could spend hours swimming in the lake, walking in the tall grasses, or watching the sunset and the stars come out to illuminate the sky. The more time she spent exploring the more she wondered what lay outside her kingdom. She wondered until her curiosity got the best of her. So, she said her goodbyes and was off to see what the rest of the world had to offer.

Her journey took her through the sky, along beaches, down ravines, and through forests. She saw and experienced everything she could for the simple reason was she could. During the course of her journey, she met many interesting people and renewed acquaintances with old. People seemed to be drawn to the colors that surrounded her. She loved the sights, the cultures, and the history of the new lands she explored, but she knew in her heart it was time to go home. So she packed her bags and retraced her steps through the forests, up the ravines, along the beaches, and through the sky until she reached her kingdom. When she arrived, she was greeted by friends and family alike and for awhile she was content, but her need for something more soon became evident. She chose for her new adventure to go to school. Her studies lead her in the direction of chemistry. She studied, time flew, and before she knew it, she was graduating.

The day before her graduation, she tried on outfit after outfit after outfit before deciding on the perfect one, which she wore to her graduation and her after party. She smiled for pictures, talked to her friends, and treasured the moment secretly, realizing it wouldn’t be long before her contentment would disappear. It would be time to start a new chapter in her life, for she was of the new age of princesses. She was a princess who would never be content to live happily ever after; she would have to live happily for the moment and that would be enough."

And she said WITH the pictures it is better... I can't imagine!