So I went over to the rec tonight JUST to pick up my shoes (w/ Nike+) so I could run TOMORROW. I had an hour, so I actually decided to work out, too. That actually makes me happy. I seriously talked myself INTO it!

I decided I would calibrate my Ipod with my Nike+ ... (it was actually right on, miraculously!)

Then I did what my friend over at nottie2hottie.blogstream.com does. (she's amazing, btw.) She goes on the treadmill on random so it does the incline and speed randomly. I did that for 20 minutes. It was HARD! I went from incline 0 to 2 and from speed 3.6 to 8! Thankfully, the intervals were only 1 minute and I could see what was coming up. So I would say only 30 seconds or only 1/3 left, etc etc :) then I can "rest" (resting was NOT resting! It was just slower or less of an incline or both. It was actually fun and the time went by soooo fast!!! Yay, thanks friend!!

I ended up going about 3 miles tonight then I went grocery shopping and I am sort of obsessed so as I was listening to music at the store and I had my shoes on. Isn't it funny to think of how much we walk per day??? Just grocery shopping in an hour I went 1 mile! Wow!

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Thanks, devoted readers.

I wanted to run this morning, but I woke up to a downpour and a thunderstorm (for the second day in a row!)...

I plan on running inside tonight. I just couldn't get my butt outta bed after I found out it was raining.

The boy is heading home for the weekend. I wish I could go, too, but alas, I have to do the paper / research... bla...

On a totally unrelated note, I watched both parts of the House season finale last night... shocker!

Hope you all are well!!

I swam today... it took me 70 minutes and I did 41 laps. My goal was 50, but I couldn't go any further! That's all for now... awaiting the inevitable talk with my boss... wish me luck....

This week has been a helluva week. I feel more behind as ever and when I feel like this, I get even more UNPRODUCTIVE! Finding this topic is KILLING ME... and I feel as if I am more depressed than ever. I guess it doesn't help that I went to Chipotle tonight... had tacos (not as bad as the burritos) BUT I had a margarita with it. I haven't had any hard liquor for about three months (if you can call it that!) ... and to top it all off, I had ice cream for dessert --- the low fat / low cal variety, but at this point, does it even matter?! GRR. I am just frustrated and feeling alone and unaccomplished!

I am just frustrated. I am really behind on research and I can't seem to focus. It's just so hard going to school everyday knowing that you hate it. How do I change my mentality to actually like something? Esp. when you hear it from everyone you know about how unhappy you are. I get it. Yes, it's not like I am not aware of it, but it just drags me down and my energy down that much more to hear other people acknowledge those feelings. I just need to find a way how to trick my brain into actually liking what I do and liking not being a couch potato (I am sure I could take that up if I had the chance). But I heard a reassuring thing the other day from a friend. She said that she *hated* school when she was there. Emphasize the hate. And she *loves* what she does now (the same thing she went to school for). Granted, I am not so sure it is as hellish as grad school, but she hated it all the same. I just need to work at loving this. Then it will all be worth it... I hope and pray.

I am just thinking this as I am not doing research, once again, and am effing working on this project re-do. I don't even have a topic yet. That's a hard part, too, believe it or not. And my colleagues don't know that I have to re-do it, so I bet they just assume that I am a lazy mo-fo. Granted, I feel like most of the time I am compared to them, but you know. I just thought "school" was over and "summer" could start. A) it hasn't and B) oh, how I wish "summer" was actually "summer". To go back to the "good ol' days" of working and having mini vacations. I really wish I could just win the lottery and become a fitness expert. But isn't that like taking nutritional advice from someone who is 30 pounds overweight, or from a matchmaker who is single? Yes, yes, I think so.