Okay, so finals week is OFFICIALLY over. YAY! Or, so I thought. Last week was atrocious. It was excruciatingly painful, to say the least. But, I got through the 20 page paper that took about 60+ hours to think up and put together and the take home final that consumed two days of my life and the proctoring of exams and the grading of exams and grading of assignments and the little or no sleep but to finish it off I got a TA award, so needless to say I was pretty pumped. So, I thought FINALLY!... I could focus on research, because it has definitely taken a back burner this last semester. It feels as if everything is at a standstill. If it were a pond, my life is the muck floating on top but now it just feels like the muck is still there and someone stirred it up.

So, I wanted to start some "summer resolutions" as I have been calling it. For one I wanted to start running, getting up early, getting on a schedule (okay, that's waaaaaay more than one), getting fit and eating right, and lastly, to take the stairs instead of the elevator. Doesn't sound bad, right? Well, I am on the 8th floor BUT it only takes 2-3 minutes and with the unpredictable elevators, it is sometimes FASTER and I am thinking that any amount of calorie burn is going to add up, right? Keep in mind I trudge those stairs in the morning, at lunch break, after supper break and whatever in between floors... and I can feel my endurance is getting better --- I am not getting as winded. I also want to use Charlie's bike to bike to school if he ever gets it fixed! Not like he uses it or anything as it just sits in his garage taking up space. That one is at a standstill.

Okay, so on Monday, I woke up on the six am hour (yeah it was 645), then I ran for about 3.5 miles around where I live. There is a HUGE hill (it's 0.5 miles of a straight I would say 40 degree incline) so I made sure to get that over with first! ha. Then I got back, got ready, got to the lab over the 8 am hour :). Very good for ANY organic person! Then my boss came in at about 930 and I was the only one in, so that's a good impression, I would say.

He came to talk to me and he said that I have to redo my 20 page report. To spare you the details, there was some miscommunication on both parts and I have to START over. I have had a few days to brew over my emotions. I was really upset. I cried in front of my boss AGAIN. As my bff says, important things in life stir up emotion and people deal with them differently; some people get mad or angry, some people yell, but we cry. It's true I really couldn't help it. I felt like I was once again stomped on. This always seems to happen when I am down or have prospects to feel like I am about to be successful in something. Simply, IT SUCKS. I have to finish it ASAP. My boss said it's not just about classes it's about learning and so it wasn't a waste! And mid-cry I said APPARENTLY IT IS! (with a chuckle through the cries). Because if it were JUST about learning, I wouldn't have to do it over! RIGHT?! Exactly!

I also told him thank you for telling me so I didn't have to be like "this" in front of the teacher. I really did appreciate it. My boss has a caring soul, and I know he doesn't like when women cry. I guess it shows our weaknesses, huh?! lol

So, I have to deal with that right now. I didn't tell anyone who is taking the class and as far as I know, no one has access to this blog (unless they have MAD skills), and I am planning on keeping it that way. I am sure some people might find out, but not if I had my way...

So there you have it... another down in the dumps start of the week. I am trying to recover, but as of right now I am avoiding that assignment like the plague, which right now is not good, but I just need to NOT, you know?!

On another note, I WENT TO WEIGHT WATCHERS! The last time I went was 4/23 and I had gained a little weight, which was expected. Finals week always does that to me. And it was the man's birthday, so I made him and his brother Better than Sex Cake and if you don't know what that entails it is: german chocolate cake mix (prepared with eggs and oil), then after it's done baking add one can sweetened condensed milk, one can caramel or butterscotch (caramel is waaaaaay better), let cool. Top with whip cream (I do fat free cool whip, not like the calories matter at this point!) and chocolate covered toffee bits. YUM. IT'S NOT DIET FRIENDLY BUT OH SO GOOD! I had three small pieces, but I still wrote EVERYTHING down that I ate. Unfortunately, I went through all but 8 of my flex points over the weekend. But, I am feeling good right now. I only ran on Monday (I was so flippin depressed and therefore tired to go another time since then), but went for a forty minute walk with two cute doggies! Yay for cute dogs! I also plan on taking a walk later today, too. And, really, my body loves when I do me right. I feel so much better mentally, emotionally AND physically!

Even better the boy said yesterday "holy crap, you've lost weight!" ... yay! He's always the first one to notice so that made me happy. And he's honest and not a brownie-point person so double yay!

This is all for now! Thanks for reading!!!