Double the c double the s, then you'll get success.

I was VERY hungry when I got home last night. I drive by McDonalds to get home, and I told myself NO! No matter what YOU CAN NOT GO. This McDonalds is 24h so it SUCKS! haha. But last night, I got in the other lane so I wouldn't be tempted. I wasn't going to go! And the funny thing was IT WAS CLOSED. I have NEVER seen it closed. EVER.

So, someone's looking out for me ;).

So I went home and DRANK SOME WATER AND WENT TO BED!! HUGE FOR ME!

A friend of mine (I will write you a personal note, later, FRIEND!) wrote to me saying that she is about to throw in the towel because she is getting frustrated and is BACK to a weight she was at the beginning of the year.

This is VERY familiar territory! Heck, I am BACK to that weight and THEN some YET have been REALLY TRYING, yet sometimes I fail but try to get rrrrrrrrrrrrrrright back up.

I guess I have to say that fitness and health are things we have to do for ourselves LONG TERM. I hope to get BACK to where I was at. Yes, I do. But I also have to keep telling myself that EACH step in the RIGHT direction is GOOD and POSITIVE. Because where does negativity get us? It really doesn't get us anywhere. Even though I get down on myself a lot (I dislike that quality about me), I try to brush myself off and tell myself something POSITIVE I did for today.

I really think my self-image has improved (except in the last couple of days). Each morning I try and say something positive. Before I would pretty much say "eww" to the mirror and continue to be grumpy. Horrible, right?! It sounds dumb, but I try to point out something I actually *like* about myself. It really has helped.

Some words of wisdom (not mine).

This encouraged ME and I hope it does for YOU, too.

"In aiming for your goals, you're either going to have to deal with the pain of discipline or the pain of regret... I think goal setting is important, but we all know that setting goals without making a plan to obtain them is pointless...and even making a plan isn't much more than an exercise if we don't plan on sacrificing to get closer to accomplishing our goals..."

Tonight's plan... because I got up WAAAY too early for getting to bed at 330 am, I am going to tutor at 5, workout at 6, eat at ~7... continue w/ research and maybe go out for a celebration for a grpmate's passing his thesis defense (m.s.).

More later!

P.S. I am eating more fruits and veggies (more meaning I AM ACTUALLY EATING THEM NOW! tehe). AND I AM FEELING GOOD.

Let's see if I can go two days in a row without icecream... may be rough.